Thursday, 25 September 2014

Fuck it

I'm done. I tried. Ten years ago when I dropped out of high school I wanted a purpose in life, a path that I was drawn toward, to find myself in order to become myself. Well, I thought I found these things but I have to face facts that none of it is happening. A decade later and here I am in the exact same spot.

Wait, haven't I already blabbered about this in previous blog entries?

Of course I have. Of course I have.

It's time to finally grow up.


Sunday, 21 September 2014

William Valle's Batman versus Terminator

The original blog entry for this went somewhere into the abyss (along with some of my animation's progress work... again), so I want to repost it because I love it that much.

You can check out Will's gallery here, also help support a fellow artist and buy his comic book series "Boots Heels and Claws" from Comixology here. I can't produce anything anymore so I have to respect somebody who is.

Sunday, 14 September 2014

Thinking about a Kickstarter or IndieGoGo campaign...

However, I'm not sure if it'll work.

Since my last blog entry I've continued to unsuccessfully find any form of paid work whether employed at a studio or freelancing. Many keep asking if I'm going to make anymore animations, which I'm flattered people want more, but it doesn't seem like anybody wants to employ me.

Here's the truth of the matter, and it's something I've had to finally accept; no one cares. No, I'm not being self deprecating at all. The thing is that I'm just some guy who made a video that was popular for a moment. 30 second cat videos get millions of views, so in comparison it doesn't mean much. I'm certainly grateful, but come on let's get real.

I'm not officially declaring anything just yet, but I'm pretty much ready to make my next animated short. I've tried getting into illustration as a means to build a portfolio, but as you can see from the previous entry nobody wants commission work from me.

Basically, the next short I want to make will be roughly fifteen minutes, and I estimate it may take me about 8 years to complete. Conditions will be the same as my Batman/Terminator video. But with somewhat of a budget I may be able to pay sound engineers, musicians, upgrade my PC to handle the project and even feature voice actors (even though there will be no dialogue).

However, once again like I said, I don't think anybody will be interested as it'd be an original piece rather than a fan film. I have no source of income to work on it full time so it may take longer to create. Plus, I'll still be living with my parents well into my 30s throughout the making of it. As if I was going anywhere anyway.

Again, just throwing it out there.

Edit 24/09/2014: Anyone? Anybody? No. Okay.

Tuesday, 26 August 2014


I've been broke for about 4-5 years and while my Batman/Terminator animation may have gained attention, I'm still broke and living with my parents and it's not exactly a place I want to be.

Here I had mentioned that I was too burnt out on animation but that time has passed and I'd like to get back on it. Except I don't have the proper work environment or the technology for where I want to go with my work, eg; a Cintiq, animation programs etc.

I have no idea if I should be saying this, but back in March I was reached out by Hollywood producers. I reached back out to them and haven't received a reply since. I also sent emails out to animation studios domestic (New Zealand) and abroad; and still haven't received contact from any of them.

That was about say, five, six months ago. Since then I've just been sitting on my ass not knowing what I'm going to do next. I've had to resort to welfare and possibly a factory job. For me this means rock bottom. I never honestly expected myself to go circular and be back where I started.

I'll completely admit - I'm desperate. Struggling, starvingly desperate. I feel like a fool. I suppose this is what we all go through. But I'm still willing to fight... some how. I can't go back to a factory job.

I'm up for taking illustration commissions in the time being. The rates would depend on the commission itself. Let me know via email or in the comments below.

Thursday, 21 August 2014

Sunday, 10 August 2014

運命機 M E T A S T R O Y A

A future animation? Who knows.

Also, I just realized all the images in my blog have disappeared. I had to re-upload the poster to my animation along with the fan art but everything else is lost to the internet abyss. Ahwell. New beginnings, I guess.

Tuesday, 5 August 2014